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No matter what happens, my God is in control and I will accept His plan over mine. I will not get my hopes up this time. No.

Ok, first off. The weather stinks in Wisconsin. LoL actually yeah it does stink but I am enjoying the snow storm. Tomorrow they are canceling churches and we are having an on campus church service because they are not wanting us to leave campus. And to top it off, THE GIRLS CAN WEAR PANTS!!! OH YEAH! Today I worked at the Youth Conclave at Calvary Baptist Church. It's a HUGE Youth Rally that they have every year. Mr. Hafeli (my former boss at the snackshop) wanted me to help out in the book store there. So I was able to do that. Due to the weather there weren't as many teens as they had hoped but it was still good I hear. My Youth group from Stoughton came out. I got to visit with Sammy and Crystal for a little bit which made me happy. I am really sad that we can't go to church there tomorrow because I wasn't there last week and the week before I was gone too, (or something like that, can't remember) anyway it feels like an eternity since I've been there. It won't be too long before the people think I am trying to get away from them. DON'T WORRY I'M NOT I love the people in that church more than anything! It's the rides that bug me but totally worth the pain! Ok enough of that... I am stuck working tonight in the HC. One of the staff girls had to fly out to visit friends on the last minute so I was asked by Mrs. Muse to take her shift so here I am. With the weather I should be glad that I am getting paid to stay in my house, but I am sad because they are doing campus entertainment tonight due to the fact that no one can leave. But I can't go cuz I am under house arrest!!! Ok I won't complain. On to other things: This has been the most awkward weekend of my life!! Lets just say since 12am this morning I have been freaked out by one of my best friends, mad at him, forgave him, had him mad at me, had things totaly awkward, almost been proposed to, almost accepted that proposal as a joke, had a long talk with someone and because good friends again. It was weird. I would go into immense detail about all of this, but I don't exactly know quite what's going on. But now that all is good again and a few friends who butted in are satisfied my friend and I decided to play a little revenge... ooo ooo ooo revenge is sweet!!!!

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Today Dr. Oats finished the sermon he started preaching on Friday about being an encouragment. It was pretty amazing because I didn't think he was going to finish that sermon this soon and today in my devos I read the passage in Eph 4:24-32 where Paul talks about putting off and putting on. The verses that stood out to me is where Paul says not to let corrupt communication proceed out of your mouth, but that which is edifying. Then Dr. Oats preaches his sermon. The Lord is really working something out for me. I need to be an encouragment and not a depression.

"You are his valentine, his only valentine, you make him happy when skies are grey, you never know dear, how much he loves you, please don't take his valentine away." AH! I head that one to many times today and every time I wanted to cry because it wasn't for me...So after wearing all black today I realized how idiotic I was being. You know those people who you would never look to for serious advice? The kind of people who are always there, easy to talk to but rarely helpful? The kind of people that everyone assumes is a philisophical, theological, psychological "blackhole" but then when necessity calls for it end up being the most helpful/ profitable tap you've ever had? Yeah, I realized that today. The person that frosts my toes more often than not and the one person who I fight with more than anyone in the world has turned out to be one of the greatest influences, helps, and friends I've ever had in my life. Today I was "moping" about and even broke into tears about a current situation in my life, and there was my friend with a bible verse in mind and stern condimation in his mouth. He said some things I really needed to hear and was correct in his assumptions (which yet again frosts my toes, and yet it was what I needed the most.) Sometimes the thorns that God places in your life are essential for growth, they build resistenace, but even the toughest thorns have their soft spots. So yeah, Valentines day, not one of my most favorite days of the year, mainly because of my own bitter attitude and the fact that my parents never made a big deal out of it so I go through the entire day, without a valentine and yeah I will admit, I was bitter and frustrated and wishing more than anything I could just go crawl in a hole and die... but I was reminded of something; There are a boatload of people who do care about me and are rather concerned for me at this present moment, but more importantly I have a God who loves me more than any other influence in my life could and that is the greatest Valentine ever.

I am negative. Probably one of the most negative people you know. I am alwaysing whining about something. Today in Human Relations, Mr. Kolwinska suggested an attitude that females should portray in order to maintain a healthy household. Now, he was talking about married life, but his example rang clear in my ears. When people spend time with me, do they feel tense and frustrated with every word I speak? Do I make people dread spending time with me? I wonder sometimes if I do. I know that my attitude in many situations is less than desirable. I know I do not pocess that "sweet-spirited" quality that many women I look up to possess. I want that quality. After that class I went right ahead to chapel where Dr. Oats talked about being an encouragment. The thought struck me again, do people walka way after spending time with me being blessed or down-trodden? Do I encourage my brothers? Or do I make them want to find the nearest cliff and jump off? Last night I was talking to one of my friends on the phone, we kinda joke about being each others venting ground because 80% of his communication to me is whining and 99% of my communication is whining, but he suggested that maybe we could try something positive for once. Then after my class and chapel I realized that God is trying to tell me something. A positive spirit is more desirable amoung friends than a negative one. I just want to take this moment to thank all my friends for putting up with Captain whiny you all deserve saint-hood!

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I've recently been reading through Exodus, I've always enjoyed reading the Old Testament stories and all the great miracles that were preformed for the children of Israel and the prophets, but rarely do I ever make those simple stories into practical use. This last week I've been on an emotional low and to top that off I've been sick. (Ear infection/sinus infection) So my attitude has been less than pleasant. But as I was reading the passage of scripture yesterday about how God downed the Egyptians who were chasing the Israelites, in the Red Sea moments after he allowed the Israelites to pass through on dry ground. And I thought to myself! HOW SHALLOW MY THINKING IS!? The very same God who parted the Red Sea, the God who gave manna from Heaven, the same God who changed bitter waters into sweet waters and caused waters to flow from a rock, That same God is the ruler of my life, and if he could control those situations, and did things that were impossible (and still is impoosible) to do 4000 years ago, He can definitely control every aspect in my life and make them turn out a whole lot better than I could. It's when the murmmering and the bitterness sets in that God has to allow adverse affects to settle into my life. I am sooo thankful for a God who is greater than any of my problems!

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I'm right now in the midst of a perm... I'm worried... will it look weird with my short hair?? AH!!! Ok yeah, so this week has been the most awkward week of my life... In the midst of everything I've almost managed to mess up 3 people's lives not including my own. Well thankfully the drama is over. It's amazing I think Drama is contagious because looking back at all my friend's this week, there was a lot of drama in a lot of people's lives. Thankfully the week is over, tomorrow is sunday and the Colts are gonna win the Super Bowl. Life is good again :)

Ok, sorry for not posting in awhile. I've been busy. So yeah... Classes, they're going awesome!!! I absolutely love being a science major! I was absolutely cut out for it. I'm also realizing that I'm more of a Physical Science person rather than medical science. I'm really loving my meteorology and Climatology class. Totally cut out for that. Now the big question, what am I supposed to do with the rest of my life???? Haha, don't ask me hard questions like that. I know I'm in God's will right now, I've never had this sort of peace, but as for tomorrow? Next week? Next year? Or 10 years from now... I'm not sure. I realized that knowing that sort of information is useless until I know where I'm supposed to be today and tomorrow... and so on. God wants us to know what next in little steps so that we don't get such a big head and get consumed with our future and forget about him. I think He does show you things, but when you get too self sufficient he lets those things become out of site and almost impossible... for awhile anyway. I wish I would have known all this several years ago, but as I look back, there is a process in my life that God is using to make me grow and trust him. And I see all the dumb mistakes I made were necessary for me to come to this point in my life. Wow. My God is so awesome!!!!! I just wish I could keep that focus in my mind! I get sooo stink'n discouraged because I forget everything I learned in like two minutes! Then after I fail in a situation I remember what I learned and then kick myself for not applying it at that particular time. You know what else really gets me! I know that there is a particular aspect of my life that God is leading me in, and I've known it since the summer between my gun hoe about it until dire year, and I was all gun hoe about it until diffculties arose then I just gave up on it when really the Lord just wanted me to focus on HIM and less on the aspect and be patient (I still hate that word) and wait for God's timing. (My dad even reminded me of this very thing this weekend, and for my dad to be in agreence with this aspect, God's really got to be trying to get my attention about it.) Now I've added some "Hagars" into this situation and I've got a lot to deal with, but yet God is faithful and merciful towards this wretched manipulative selfish sinner that I am. WOW! Patience is a virtue.... patience is a virtue!