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I feel so bad for focusing on myself these last few weeks. God is really working something out in my life I know. But I was reminded what it's all about today when I went to the gym night. I tossed the idea of going around all week, didn't really want to go because I knew it would make for a long night, but Justina needed a driver to pick up her youth group in Ft. Akinson and then drive to Stoughton so I decided that I would go... and I got to lead a young lady to the Lord!!!!!! God is good. Praise him for his goodness right now!!!!!!

Labels: God's will, Stoughton

Wow. That's all I can say. This little "mini-series" that is going on in my life is really taking a toll on me. I have officially lost 8 pounds since the start of it...a week and a half ago (which isn't a bad thing, and if it keeps on going it'll all be great). But on top of that, every time I decided to wash my hands of the whole situation and just step out... someone else comes up to me brings it up and totally bashes my best friend. One group of guy friends yesterday sat me down and told me 100,000 reasons why I needed to just wash my hands and everyone of them was against my friend and these guys claimed to be good friends of both of us. I decided that maybe they were right, but as my friend sat down and we began to talk I realized both guys were very wrong because I cannot sit back and watch that friend stumble into another broken heart so, I hate being the friend because I am sitting there giving him the best advice I can, I am telling myself that it would be good for everyone if my friend would just fall on his face and wake up to reality, but we've all observed this before and the lesson has never been caught on so yeah, I kill myself. Last night was my first real retreat from the drama where I was able to spend both van rides to and from church talking to people who are not part of the drama and just visit about other things, it was really what I needed. I came back feeling normal again it was great, I still can't eat much... it's weird I eat breakfast normally, by lunch I'm starving, I eat half of what I get and I am full or I eat all of what I get, my stomach ties up in knots and I throw up, and then I can't for the rest of the day. CAN THE DRAMA END!!!!!

Labels: drama, personal

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This week has been a very emotional trying week for me. I came up on the end of last weekend with a false sence of hope and a very excited emotion. It's funny cuz 3 weeks ago after a chapel message I prayed that the Lord would give me an opportunity to be a selfless friend. I was thinking down the lines of helping people out when I had a load of stuff to do kinda thing, but I've learned to be careful of what you ask the Lord because that which man considers sufice, the Lord requires so much more! Had I known what the Lord was going to use to try me with selflessness, I probably wouldn't have prayed for it because it is sooo easy for me to give up time, money, and sleep for people, but to give up people for people... that's the one area where I am the most selfish and God knew that. I can't and won't go into details but it was hard, and did I prevail and prove selfless? Not entirely, and for that I am ashamed, but I am excited to say that I did recognize that this was the hand of God working, I can see it, feel it and though my heart aches it is good.
This week another interesting drama has happened with another one of my friends. The Lord is really working in her life. She has been so content living here in town, working 2 jobs and "surviving" but the Lord saw fit to take her van away from her by causing her engine to die and having it cost $1000 + to have it fixed.... $1000+ more than she has. Through this all though the Lord has once again showed himself in control of the situation and providing her with a substitute vehicle until she knows what exactly she is going to do with her life. Another friend that the Lord may be taking away from me... and yet the way He is working in her life and the way He's proved himself faithful tells me that all of this is Good.
Other litttle trials this week affecting me is that this is the one week where my backbone, Justina is gone on choir tour and so the shoulder I would normally cry on is gone and she was supposed to come back last night with the rest of the choir but she ended up hurting herself and had to stay behind at home and go to the Dr. So she is still not here. But God is still Good. And last night her roommate got into a car accident but with the exception of her poor little car, she is alright, God protected her... God is still Good.

Labels: God's will, personal, random thoughts, spiritual

I listened to this song today on a CD from Northland. I needed it.

How vast His grace, How great His faithfulness,
How deep His Love, How rich His mercy,
How high his thoughts, How sure His wisdom,
And all of these, He gives to me!

So I will praise Him, with every breath,
For He has rescued me from certain death,
Now this life I live, I live in Him.
Oh let His glory shine, while mine grows dim.

How just his ways, how good his discipline,
How core his truth, How kind His goodness.
How calm His peace, How long His patience,
And All of these He gives to me!

So I will praise Him, with every breath,
For He has rescued me from certain death,
Now this life I live, I live in Him.
Oh let His glory shine, while mine grows dim.

How great his power, How grand His majesty,
How true His will, How high His glory,
How strong his might, How real his triumph,
And all of these He gives to me!

So I will praise Him, with every breath,
For He has rescued me from certain death,
Now this life I live, I live in Him.
Oh let His glory shine, while mine grows dim.

OH LET HIS GLORY SHINE: WHILE MINE GROWS DIM.